To A Fresh Start...

I decided to delete my old blogs because those were old thoughts and worries. Everyone is entitled to a fresh start after a huge fall back, and I don't want to think about those incidents anymore. I want to have a professional, humble attitude and work at becoming an even better singer. The issues with my first voice teacher was a mistake and I will never let this happen again. I want to put this mishap behind me for good and remember the fantastic times I had with Kimmel instead of blaming anyone (including myself) over this situation.

I was not having the greatest time at Luther College and I think it reflected in my attitude. I had some fabulous moments with people and made great connections that I hope to still have; I had a great last conversation and short lesson with my recent and now former voice teacher, Dr. Jennaya Robison, and I will cherish those moments forever. Cathedral Choir was a great choir to be in and I wouldn't have had it any other way; helping with the opera production and getting to know a few more people better during my last few weeks at Luther, helped me feel more accepted in the community and I felt good to be doing something constructive in the music department. But I wasn't completely connected at the school and my attitude throughout the whole year, I think reflected that on how I carried myself and it sometimes made it unpleasant for other people to be around me. Generally, I consider myself to be a very happy and positive person most of the time. However, I was completely disconnected in the environment at Luther; especially socially. I love the small town and hope to visit, but Luther is not a place for "non-traditional" students. It was way too high school for me and having experienced age diversity and culture diversity at Columbia College Chicago and at Harold Washington, being in this closed-minded bubble, was a culture shock to me and I felt alienated sometimes. I tried not to let myself be effected because I was older than everyone, but it did.

So it didn't work out and I gave Luther a chance, and like Kimmel told me before, if it doesn't workout, I can always come back to NEIU in the fall. And so it is! I am excited to work with Sasha Gerritson and I "REALLY" want the role of Despina!